In Limbo

Why is it that everything in my life (in my mind) is connected to when my due date is. It is February 8. February 6th is not February 6th but 2 days before my due date. Bridger wanted to have a "Souper bowl" Party on the 6th where people bring their favorite soup and we play games. I told him I don't know what I will be doing. I can't really plan anything in my life at this point because I don't know when this child is going to come. If I could, it would make the waiting go faster because I would have something to do besides wait. I really envy people who deliver early and people who have scheduled C-sections or inductions. I know there are usually undesirable extenuating circumstances that make such conditions necessary, but it sounds SO tempting right now! I am too much of a planner to feel in limbo like this. There is really nothing I can do but make the best out of it. My visiting teacher, who has a 6 month old and was in this same condition 6 months ago, reminded me that the baby is fed and happy and I should try to enjoy it. So much easier said than done at this point!

Jot it down!

I got the title from one area of Corban's scout Bear manual. He is encouraged to write different things down. I can benefit from it, too. Here are some things that have happened that I have thought I have been cute/profound. Brynna said to me the other day, "I just wish I would have got what I wanted for Christmas." She was the last person I was still trying to shop for because I couldn't figure out what to get her. Curious what it was she really wanted, I asked. She responded. "I don't know." I had to laugh.
Corban prayed in his prayer the other day that my belly button will return to normal after this pregnancy. He is quite concerned. I thought that was cute.
Last night at our weeknight relief society meeting, they encouraged all women in our ward to participate in the Personal Progress program. They then showed how easy it could be by having 4 women and 4 young women say what they had done for their projects for different values. I was especially impressed with a 13 year young woman who for her faith value project composed a song about faith. She also read John 3:16, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." She then shared how God must have had faith in Christ when he sent him that he would accomplish the task at hand and how he similarly has faith in us. She then said how Christ must have had faith that he could accomplish the task set before him and how we need to have faith. I have never thought of it that way and was quite impressed by the knowledge of a 13 year old. Another sister in our ward started a service blog. She is living with her parents right now while her husband is unemployed and having a hard time finding a purpose in her life in a house with 2 moms and 2 dads. She decided to look for service opportunities. She spoke of how it has blessed her life. I don't know that I LOOK for service opportunities. When I did personal progress it was to get it done because I was supposed to. I think I will try it again now because I want to. I was a very nice night!

Inspiration

I have been reading "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People" and also "Sink Reflections" (it is a book by the "Flylady" Marla Cilley on how to keep your house clean in minutes a day). I am wondering how I will get it all done with another baby on the way when I don't feel like I am keeping up like I want to now. Bridger and I went to the temple on Saturday. I got the strongest impression while I was there that it will all be okay (which is probably a given for you all since we know the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle). I just feel that my abilities will increase whatever needs to happen so it will all work out. It is always comforting to get those revelations because you know the Lord knows you and your situation and cares about you.

What is on my mind

I really loved having my kids home during break. They were so helpful and it was fun to do some stuff we don't normally have time for (movies, out the lunch, cousin time). Back to reality and a busy schedule. It is good for all of us, I suppose. We had 3 cases of strep throat of the break. Maybe that is part of the reason why it was so nice to have them home because they weren't feeling as well and weren't as wild! We went to a baptism preview for Kjerstin on Sunday night. She is SO excited for her baptism in June. It helps that it will be ON her actual birthday. It's amazing to me my kids are getting so old! It feels like we just did this with Corban and it is Kjerstin's turn already. I guess the getting older thing helps with the getting helpful thing. I would say I don't feel old so I don't know where the time has gone, but through my pregnancy tinted glasses I am wearing I both look and feel old! This Friday I will be one month away (not that I am counting)! And the good/bad part is I have done really well so far with my blood pressure/ pre-eclampsia concerns that usually arise so I don't see an induction in my future unless I am overdue with a 10 pound baby! See, I need the schedule to keep me occupied so I don't worry so much about when this baby will come!